maybe i was wro…

maybe i was wrong.

 

 

 

maybe i didn’t put in enough of my best.

nobody can unde…

nobody can understand how im feeling right now.

Thoughts.

It was the Alevel result day today, and im sure every school in singapore will be doing the usual, giving the results slips to the best/most improved. And sometimes i don’t really get it when some people get so hyped up about getting straight As in exams. You see, year after year schools (and classes within each school) here compete with each other to see how many straight As or best students they can churn out (there are rankings!) , and this naturally causes students to have this competitive urge to get the best (meaning all As).

When i first got my results, the first thing i did was to let out a sigh (with shaking hands). Because after finishing my Alevel exams i told to myself that i had did my best, and that whatever results will determine whether i did – and my results did reflect my personal best. But i realized that there were people around me crying because they did not get the A that they wanted, and instantly felt like i was the wierdo… So i tried comforting them by using my grades :/ Soon after results day, time flew and people started to apply for universities using their Alevel results. There were people who got accepted into local universities, and there were those who flew overseas to study. One by one people i was once so close with before slowly drifted apart.

So…ya. Thats a long story of a part of my life. And my take is that if you have awesome grades then thats great for you! But even if you don’t, it does not make you any lousier a person as compared to ur friend who got straight As. Its since been a year since i got my results, and after working part time and exploring i have got to understand why some people say that sometimes its not all the grades that count in life. True, maybe one can get straight As for his entire life, get scholarships and get a great job, but those grades do not guarantee his true happiness in life. Getting straight As does not mean that one has the proper moral values/virtues. Getting grades whether good or bad does not determine how you are as a person, it just reflects how you fare in certain subjects.

 

 

 

And anyway, life is gonna fuck you whether you have great grades or not, and its up to you to learn how to deal with it.

well what am i doing here at this hour?

geez i have absolutely no idea… fell asleep at around 12am, only to wake up at around 2am plus, feeling wide awake. my body clocked is so screwed up.

stumbled onto this video from my friend’s fb wall…maybe i should get back to playing my piano again

A burden finally lifted off my shoulders when i applied for the course i wanted in SIM. Even though i’ve heard of many people warning me about the difficulties of UOL, i still went with it, being the hardheaded me. But i believe that it is the right decision for now, for it just wasn’t an impulsive one, days of thinking and questioning myself whether am i doing it right, more importantly i made the hard decision by myself to quit poly.

 

 

im still a tiny bit fearful of the future lying ahead…new friends, new environment, new everything.

 

Darn it.

i have to get used to change.

And smile more.

My guinea pigs

Love them soooooo much!!

A new start…?

well…i’ve decided to continue posting on this blog after such a long time. i’ve been posting mostly on my tumblr, but its all photos of things i like with no word posts usually.

yup, so i’m gonna try writing word posts here again.

let’s see how it goes.